Sеxυаl Enеrgy

A quick glance through these webpages should be enough for any casual observer to conclude that I am inordinately fascinated with female beauty. But it was not always so.

There was a time, early in my spiritual development where I was fascinated by the earth and all things natural, especially the things no one ever noticed. I often stopped in mid-journey to marvel at the blue and white sky reflected in a creek that cut a lightening zig-zag pattern across a deep green field or to photograph a crow in flight, trying to capture the feather pattern in its wing repeated by the dark clouds behind him. Then something happened.

I began to notice the female form in almost everything. Clouds, hills, sand dunes, etc. I noticed how a grassy sunken dell between two hills in the middle of a field looked like the hollow of a woman's tummy between her hips. I noticed how sand dunes can look like a woman sleeping on her side, etc. It was then that I realized that female beauty could inspire. I went on to make many pictures of beautiful women with a natural kind of spirituality.

I've come a long way since then. My understanding of beauty and spirituality have grown hand in hand, each inspiring the other. In fact, female beauty has come to be such a stable pilar in my spiritual life that today it saddens me to find so many people trying to stifle their fascination for it, often in attempts to find spiritual enlightnment. Traditionally, we tend to separate the physical and the spirtual, and we place the spiritual on a higher plane. As a result female beauty and sexuality are usually looked down on as depraved. This is ironic because there is no greater spiritual motivator than our sexuality. If you doubt it let's look at what men and women find beautiful and how it reveals their sexuality.

Men like space, mountains, the sea, wild animals, cars, etc. - things which they can conquer, dominate, explore - things on which they can exert and define their masculinity.

Women, on the other hand, are fond of babies, domesticated animals, flowers - things to take care of, nurture, and teach, as well as things which make them look good - things which make them feel feminine. (It's interesting to note that even the women who claim to like wild cats and horses always seem to prefer the company of tame ones. It's the men who have the zeal to go out and tame the beasts!)

Sυrе I'm generalizing a bit, i.e. there are men who like flowers and women who ride bulls, but whatever our sexual orientation and degree of it, our tastes are dictated by our sexuality. Most of us never notice this connection, however, and are quite capable of carrying on with our fascinations perfectly intact in spite of our ignorance. This is good. We need people to be fascinated by all kinds of things if we want mankind to progress. We need dentists, and garbage men, and astronauts. We need people to be fascinated by things with which we are not. The important thing to notice though is that ALL fascinations arise from our sexual capacities, whether we notice it or not. In fact, our sexual energy is the only energy we have.

This does not mean that we should all start ignoring every fascination except female beauty. But it does mean my fascination is at least as valid as any other.